Memory

 Bathed in the morning sun is a blessing. Premise that there is no wind. A certain day afternoon, I do not know what will be sleeping with me and dusty memories wake, wake up the story, let me sense of loss. I do these days anything unusual irritability, as found in this fragment is not a good sleep can be forgotten, the want to write it down, but was chaotic outside world torn apart upsets this point thinking I want to become h mushroom The little girl, little by little to pick up the pieces, let me refresh. If the second grade back then --- I --- I still can not tell men and women and students round the shoulders over the playground girl running time can play house and family girl kiss hug (remember not kissed). Perhaps this is the so-called pure and innocent it! And when we all have shoes, and such things have gone . Maybe we are ignorant of even the most beautiful time to spend. until their innocence when there are shoes, and people began to shy away from contact, I will not take the initiative to speak, let alone a girl. like a girl. Many . because the young, so like everything, can only be silent. Whenever I get a little big feel to his old stupid. junior high school graduates to learn the guitar at the time --- is nonsense, a coincidence --- I shit do not know, there is no awareness about the music, never think that one day I talk to it together. When I began to perceive some meaning to the music, got out of hand, I seem to fall into the trap go. fall into the trap, but also because people. the holidays, the two girls in my life played an irreplaceable role. Perhaps for them, I am nothing, but whether or not it happens, they may really have changed my fate, I think it is more like a teacher. Of course, she is not both older than me. taught guitar teacher like H, because she is very smart, but I think the M is more intelligent, so I was silly to think the teacher. it is clear that H is more than M proficient in music theory, and perhaps this is because teachers like her. H wearing a pair of glasses, short hair, fair complexion, it seems very quiet, very clean, talked like a boy, work efficiency as a girl. M also wear glasses, long hair, chubby, cute smile. At the time, I feel like a little white pig hh
her two girls look not very nice, the truth. but then I think that girl was just as great, but also the truth. They may be too good, only let me have this wrong impression. They know music, I heard them play the piano, singing a very nice, very fast progress in the guitar, I envy, but only stupidly Listen to holding cheeks, feeling like an idiot hh
spare, H will help the teacher clean up the bachelor house, laundry, and sometimes called on me, I would be happy to silly Baji ran to help. I clumsy, even the clothes will not wash to clean the teacher and the teacher had the bedroom. work, we are playing together, listening to their songs. can they not know to keep up with them, they matter sorted out with, when I practice at home secretly, finger have pop-up of blood. is I'm too dumb, beginner, they do not even have to practice. However, due to close my home away from that school, I soak it all day, every moment expecting them to come to class. In this way, in the past , and two months. and then admitted to a school. because I think they are great, they came together again, and so will raise itself. self-confidence. So I am very happy. In short any case can be admitted to the provincial key high school, How much do I have pride. but do not know that they are not think so. a (M) to catch the last train key class, lucky; a (H) did not go in few minutes before, was repeated chatter at home. I, do not mention me, but I still long for her (H) of the collective. may indeed be too ignorant kid, I kept on the initiation of love (love is the meaning of love), who has a good impression on the assumption that girls. But they do not would think so, so I know I'm wrong, but also specifically depressed for a while. Oh, when he was too good at self-assertion. It seems I was quite naive. then occurred to me very pleasant thing, H people was disappointed to be better than a group of hooligans. And then even and one of the little gangster love h
I was crazy, because I was still thinking about the people with her, I may h
real ah ... forgive us, then we are still just children h
and then later, her grades plummeted, the students all day and tear mixed gang hooligans, and I do not like to think of her, no contact until now. In fact, Ever since I entered high school, the three of us do not have much contact. H and M also seems to be --- I do not know how in the end their relationship. hh
I do not know a person's love at first sight calculation does not count. I said then In fact, not long. just in first grade, but I am afraid that just a month. One afternoon, against the background of the setting sun, a beautiful figure out there in my sight. standing face to face, I silly; her, stunned and speechless . I feel that time seems to pause time. If I close my eyes, I still remember that picture, she was in her face. somehow, I think we are particularly familiar with, but really did not know . a white shirt and two braids in the breeze along, breeze along the chest of ribbons in the roll, a pair of black eyes surprised to see a sudden freeze boy h
when and where I really feel and has already had , but really did not matter h
open the lock and then she rubbed my eyes away hh. When a man suddenly appeared in front of you, and she and the object of your ideal almost exactly the same, and that Is it deja vu? You will understand that feeling. Unfortunately, I was not her ideal man has either already ...... so long as the crush began 5 years and may continue to start my
even always dare not do something, I can not tell anybody, even know her name, it is estimated have spent nearly a year. It seems like this like the absolute and H or M is not the same. M eventually learned that she and classmate, and even the legend that is certain teachers xxx - Full Year Results of the best girls, one of the best h
Although her more admirable. but I'm crazy. was I feel like I have no qualifications. I feel more and more the gap between themselves and other people, everything. I do not have any means to get to know her, no. and she and her class --- I said I am longing, really - - In my eyes, her class is like a garden of beautiful flowers everyone is open and she was the most beautiful and most stubborn of that one. When I play online games, all kinds, almost all the players are can not do without her name. --- I like to call her as her, I would not do all the things I think immoral. I think she is an angel. Again, I was not allowed anyone to hurt her.
was a lot of players think I am often asked the girl to my gender course is vague when I answered. even when there is a young man in Shanghai was in deep, if I'm woman maybe we really will happen for some online dating, maybe he has not yet free. Oh, Simon did too successful , all the inspiration does not come from the likes of Mody
High School Tuition to start learning more and more pressure, I am a little too much, so the daily diary, what a mess they are written. was no opinion that, even each paper can not do without her, her name was actually filled with a lot of diaries, I am very surprised I did not even own such a thing. I really do not know. finally one day I could not stand, shake shake to Dousou picked up a pen and paper, wrote some do not know how I think of it, and even emailed to her. She wrote back, but I have not seen to be a classmate lost. I am very angry, like that the students killed, but he is man after all, I can only pretend it does not matter. And then that man is no longer simple, but I am still. Finally, after all, means to win with a rogue to a sympathetic, I still saved. but she still do not know who I am. was always a lot of cranky, such people will suspect that the girls learn good appearance, such as one would think that most women are not learn science. And I wonder why we in this election, focusing it Why is the class of 16 most beautiful women in the class with class; Why Tuition her language of mathematical physics can actually play out over 140, but better than any old-fashioned girl. and h has been very low key. you know, follow it? Well, I did not do it. because I was surprised to find that our school is the same route, so they do not have to do so. it is no wonder, Suihua, ah, to that great point of fart where h
but for home, I was a bit of confidence, after all, the train station near the girl, a private clinic in the high one, when I transformed into Hu's daughter, so that people are happy, but more of a surprise. from the backcountry of the talented woman, beauty and wisdom of both, huh, huh. Middle School that summer, she will go to the library in the chest holding the book. so I like to wander in the library. but more time, I will be his classmates got me listening to rock music with little shack house, an attempt to forget the existence of this powerful entrance. At that time, I think the sun was bright, the sky is blue, the world is beautiful, although the entrance into us disappear, we did not. entrance end of the afternoon, the next big rain, we holding an umbrella, do not open, we just like a gang of SB model appears, shouting . I guess according to her character, she and her mother would walk around the streets, stroll shops. a result, I guess is a, but I do not happy. because that would be the last time I saw her. Finally, she a freshman, we have the high four; she admitted USTC Suihua one, we admitted from the Suihua one Suihua VII. There are two of h of course, also in the. high first winter meeting I went to a postal greeting cards, but I do not know the address h
, I thought, I want to say-mail out on the line, do not get it that close does not matter. hh
college, general there are two routes, one is the culture of learning lessons, scores, highly educated, and then find a job. Select the line more often more simple; the other is the so-called interpersonal choice, quite and give up learning, passing on the line , and more focus on learning how the secular, how to use eye-to see people, to deal with people. This is real. Our second one accounts for the main school, and people like me in front of them, like the nursery children. I insist that the life . efforts to grasp the direction. University
first arrive, everything is not stable, everything is new, it is inevitable but also appeals to the imagination. too little experience, so the match will be involuntary, that the other is experienced, can teach you nothing. So, I began to question the friendship and love, the relationship between man and man began to doubt, question the relationship between the opposite sex. I lived with doubt. certain ideas or even a thorough change in a few days. Then I started, hate friendship The word, hate the word friend, I think is the most common illicit relationship, and it is the most real, a person unnecessary use these words to gloss over, we all do, and can say nothing. I Maybe I think I may have been in love before, and just who do not recognize it. I hate the experience. except that it taught me the truth. One day, someone who wanted me to know a girl named Tuition, let me think the Tuition. so one is Tuition01, one is Tuition02. they are nothing like. I always do not understand why Tuition01 not online, it seems that is not on. That is not wishful thinking with the QQ, what school to find her. In fact, I has not thought about finding her. never. because, in our days when I can not see any indication. We can go to Baidu to enter his name, and then be numerous results. but I was incredibly to I never reported in this promising approach to find her --- her class. She is not the Internet, but does not mean that people do not go around her. Finally, someone in her school class, I found a relative to the most clear photos --- it was last winter, she and her classmates --- with lots of photos of people. I do not know why I sigh. At this moment my eyes Tuition01 not as I remember Tuition01 So beautiful. many girls to the University will be reborn, whether good or bad tires or bad child into a good bone bones, but she does not seem to change anything, I was surprised, because she is not a stuffy person. her dark, thin, but the results are still so good to see her classmates are very simple look, and their bright smiles, I think she was doing great. I am very happy. on to college --- especially this Tatters college --- I even do not want to call it a university. fashionable met many of the girls --- I was unwilling to call them girls, I find they like the bitch, of course, just arrived should be the new bitch. Perhaps In my mind, only Tuition regarded as the girl. We do not have Tuition. I have no past, I do not understand anything, I am naive, I have an old appearance and a pure heart, I was twenty years old on the feelings are still unknown. I still dream can do the most pure way h.. then reality tells me that this road is really dead, really dead! is dead, at least in this ! . good is a habit. people are growing, and I do not know how long my heart is still good. external one: I miss Yang Yang, and Chris
She was my classmate, junior high school. high school with the school different classes. a very dynamic women. She likes ideas. and I do, I love her for that. She has a strong, desire, afford to take put it down. she loves to pick the first person, but I am not, I need such a person. I often do not get together the energy and courage. she her to Jilin University
advertising professional and very appropriate. her future better. Meanwhile, I am envious. If I study advertising professional, only to College. At the same time, she did not know so I can see her. I really want to learn advertising, but I can not go to college, so I give up. psychology, then, in this respect, I do not think her mind than I am flexible. even though she many ideas I do not look good. However, I expect that one day we can cooperate. Chris, forgot the full name, my high school teacher, the Americans, from a Chinese name Li Shenglong own. At that time, we totally despise him that name. This over several years do not know why suddenly wanted him. He taught us that lesson two years, China will be able to give you a lesson the teacher had finished, I really do not know what we are doing. or that problem, why would it suddenly miss him? person in his early thirties, still in China, of a wife. his wife --- small and nonsense, I met her, she just sat there. he is not handsome, a white man, there are only one meter seven months, not fat, muscle is very developed, high-fat than the usual strong and domestic. He said his home in Washington DC a town, I do not know, he said that in the vicinity of the place in Maryland. I am reminded of Suihua in the near Harbin. Anyway, he studied Chinese for half a year and people will be able to talk to, very fierce. Although it is not know who learned to teach a native northeast chamber, half nibbling Ji, Hang Chi flat belly, a mouth on ; Han Han, it h
your mother, you taught me for two years then, I screamed my name on, I played on your home, and I and a few photos you look good, do not deny it, and I will now swear in English, and English! Finally, the question remains, why did I suddenly think of him? Could it be the country's foreign simple? attached: August 12, 2005 in the journal over the past few months
still lonely, although seven or eight hours per day in the Blazing Angels called frozen pear that the night elves --- --- this is my night and day and listen to them with a bunch of trash talk and see if they fitted Bhh I have to spit the hh
I think that in The virtual world so wild, wanton, seriously, the thief also boring in real life garbage certainly still full of garbage a ----- I still see these people much; in the virtual world strongly defend justice, an extremely good and honest people in real life still may be a weak, because the ideal than reality, virtual seems more easy to implement. actually I was wrong, no matter what he has the ideal difficult to achieve, just look at you go do not do it, because as I said: in real life garbage in the game definitely still a waste, and above the theoretical equivalence. online games can really see through a person's nature. I'm crazy, that is, and they played for so long I knew their hearts: at my side, little can be seen as a good person I am. really, really do not want this to continue, and even started to live the kind of nostalgia Middle School: a boring classroom, inside and out into my dear classmates. his door are busy, perhaps with learning about, and perhaps only time in the busy mix; some because of what the joy, and some because a bunch of old friends to become a shameless waste requirements and depressed. Really, this is not like classes, but I do nostalgia, nostalgia was busy busy stealing points, looking forward to the college entrance examination is not willing to departure. look at high school sophomore students of the young and frivolous, innocent face Who knows what tomorrow will be the number of them into us today! few of us go bored Zhang force when the hut, in fact, there is more bored. everyone the same, curled up in the house that had collapsed the steel bed, relying on wall, a very dirty look, my ears have become a big dragon to buy common mp3 headphones, we do not consciously repeat the same action, only with different faces. In that school buildings not far from the cabin , we hold the guitar talking about the future of fantasy, saying the plan after graduation, but who are unwilling to bring learning hh this is the legendary escape? finally one day I saw on TV singing Zhang Han Yun, heard When we think is the first song n great nausea all day long to hear went to the USTC, although I think her strength is more than that, but anyway she University of Science and Technology of China, and I did not go to college the gap between the hh is evident once again been pushed back my courage .2006
entrance from the diary before the last day of the past and further, two steps. There are three days, the school has stopped, declare the end of my career, repeat a year. I have any kind of feelings, more separation distress. I am sorry for whom? Is not China gradually began to fancy the wc? is the tomboy Lt3? still have the lovely that simple? or that clean, far-reaching impact on me, and I want my girls who have lost confidence, wc barely count as one, wc I'm sorry I call you in the back, but why did not you do so disgusting? people looked pleasing to the eye Some girls, let me feel sad is not that they hh
is Zhang? my junior high school students that the way people; is David Chang? that IQ is only two months and then stoop to the same table; is a quarter Xiaopeng? strange in the familiar; is the history of the Ming home? and my dubious super ink guy; is Liu Haiyue? is his wife? (this point was enough ě it) is Lei? is Feng Yongliang? is Li Yongpeng? hh good as not. In this year, the company of these people and I, but I do not know what to say, the huge class I can not name the names of all the people, but soon after that day, they will become my my In the past, all the way to and from the hh
never have they? I had the cheek to point to what wc as a memorial, not below, it seems they did not feel anything uncomfortable. Yes ah, always been the so-called social tutorial activities that from the beginning who do not have to know who, I thought, perhaps to know who are the complications, nothing good can this is inevitable, who can not and people around all day speech, of course, I mean they are not normally hh
what heart. Maybe I was born so kind, of course, is to nice to say, the fact is that weak. I want to be a hermit, but I think I did not hack it as a up. Although there are numerous good in the world, the so-called wonderful, I want to call me these wonderful temptation is the temptation not how, but happy, but I think many of the good corresponds to the world, countless bad I see more is ugly, this is the reason I want to retreat up, of course, I do not misunderstand --- I do not want to become a monk. big to world national leadership, national leaders, small to an individual, for example, Today, we drew a few hard bottles and paper bags that rushed downstairs to chants of We are all idiots you! I do not know that they have good business sense, or that a good mercenary money eyes are invincible h h were estimated to the base of all the Chinese around the world are all basically like this. such a society! I have any reason to this people to contribute? I contribute to society is to such people? all rubbish. I think I more and more like Zhang force the hh
seclusion perhaps I would starve to death, but I'm not how much ability, I only think I have morals, no talent, I would not change society, there is no society that is hh I do not care, do not care about my existence. at least I do not want to serve the people I despise. History of the Ming house that I was do unnecessary resistance, Jiang! Well, this is the integrity, and other things it does not matter, and nothing what the purpose of the map, and I the most popular words of the most disgusting modern word is h5 h6 day day day, three days, such as broken in the final hh
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actually sell twenty-five dollars, it is ironic that when something is expected on the pounds weighed only a Sixty-six of these pounds hh is not a dream, I feel something is not in the herald? is not saying, ) do? I did not superstitious, but do I still dream hh hh
not superstitious it is really erratic life ah! January 11, 2007 to go home the morning of the first day of

went out and saw cars parked n front license plate is The leather on the visit of bigger children You, Han Bank of India did not have children, do not move the foot a little silver Zgad those rare children, no night downtown, not angry exchange, frozen to my hissing Haha, blind to pull the nose to, and a girl came over to the floor of the old Biequ. thief like silver can not stand to Mai Tai Road, the road sub-teeth, dead pull the silver car horns should Zizi Wawa De bad call, the old nose, a small minibus diversions You either land on the Karma Kagyu to You in, or to hug on the look dead. I will reform the gad xin four Kazakhstan, home to the species you feel hungry gad leather foot in the end it? (translation: their wandering in the street What people do not know where that is not endearing, not lively, not warm, cold my whole body shaking, teeth fighting, hissing cold, nose DC, as if to a complete stranger places, particularly the feeling of helplessness. people can not stand very dirty on both sides of the road and the road, cars noisy whistle sound is particularly annoying people, so many small van on the road or driving too slowly passed, or bloom hard. I'll be there to, ah, the feeling of home Where is it?) hey ~ home, finally able to brush your teeth with hot water wash feet; do not listen to the bedroom, bad language also soared snore a few people together ; without fear of talking in your sleep at night drooling seen and heard by others; do not think it was a bit of luxury to spend four dollars or three dollars is spent to save a little for dinner, sitting on the toilet not to squat on the line! but one person alone really can not stand the loneliness, I'd rather not leave the students to go back to bear the pain! up school ah! night
Dragon: Brother recently Zeyang ah ~ exams yet? Peng: I went home last night 18:12 points starting from the star, 18:58 to arrive in Suihua, the stakes do not you? When you test ah? Capitals Shaa? hey ~ you learn what a professional you have not told me? Dragon: many subjects We finished on the 28th. I ~ remember good, very long: in the North of Mechanical Engineering and Automation, Machine Automation, Mechanical and Electronic Engineering. Exam Content: Advanced Mathematics, English, C language programming descriptive geometry, mechanical drawing, engineering chemistry, these are the main subjects, the Deputy Division will not say too much TMD. you? Han Dynasty are learning what? Peng: Harbin Normal University Star College of Foreign Languages Faculty of Humanities foreign language professional. Exam Content: English (English Intensive Reading, Extensive Reading), Chinese (modern Chinese, modern writing), a total of four subjects, did not, mad at you! you can learn these subjects at the back of the phase? Long: Well, no time , out of time but also place, I now have achieved initial success of the. midterm exam, all her subjects are hung up. Yeah! I hung up the two subjects! yeah! Peng: ...... Ge, Although you three days younger than me, but I heard what you said or would like to call you before I thought of Ge ...... still at school when a Long Gao Qing and I say, as if the words can be and just Connect ...... Peng: I have difficulties now, and I love a girl, but every day is difficult to meet, only send text messages, I talk about? Long: first funny, make her happy ; be recalled, so she knows your past; go about her past, you have to fight to understand her. find out she likes what, and then match up. should be careful, the performance of your dedication and vision
a humor, and careful, three enterprising, romantic four, five about her, six O is very important, with good relations with their dorm O, family background to be cognizant of seven or eight friends do first, and slowly in-depth, less than no alternative but do not tell the truth, do remember! nine not too deep, to pay to be fair to yourself. Ten O is equally important to me for mobile phones to O
mass 17, 10, reply within 29 minutes, made a cell phone ring like crazy, so I have a sense of accomplishment the first time, although I did not contact them for a long time, but it seems that I was very valued. ding knocking, knocking tingle, this feel like a dream. I

still in bed asleep

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people watch manager was also beaten hospital
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